Guess I've Missed You From The Day We First Met

I'm Emily. I'm 22. I recently graduated from college. I plan on seeing the world someday. Preferably sooner rather than later. Any questions? Need help with something? Don't be afraid to ask.  fabulous person



❝You know what this summer was? This summer was ISIS, beheadings, missing airplanes, airplanes shot down, religious minorities being persecuted, black Americans being persecuted, militarized police, Iggy Azalea having the “song of the summer,” Robin Williams hanging himself, and finding out Hello Kitty isn’t even a fucking cat.

2014 was the summer of existentialism, and it’s the kind of summer and cultural climate during which we should all discuss the matter of dying sad, scared, confused, and alone more often.❞

Let me get this straight:

mysharona1987:

Guys like Trayvon Martin and Mike Brown smoke pot, drink and listen to rap music: In death, they’re condemned as a vicious thugs who had it coming.

Joan Rivers was caught on camera advocating genocide and cheering on the deaths of innocent kids: In death, is called a feminist icon with a heart of gold and her vile remarks are completely swept under the rug.

OK. That’s fair.

(via lipstick-feminists)

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anakistarsong:

zing-noir:

River otters at the Zoological & Botanical Garden in Ichikawa, Japan

omg the last one he pops up ahjfskghfagskjfkhdjs ahahaha

This is what heaven looks like…

otters are my favorite animal by far asdf

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anakistarsong:

zing-noir:

River otters at the Zoological & Botanical Garden in Ichikawa, Japan

omg the last one he pops up ahjfskghfagskjfkhdjs ahahaha

This is what heaven looks like…

otters are my favorite animal by far asdf

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science-sexual:

breelandwalker:

*HIC-BLORP*

This is a fucking seal with hiccups which makes is like fifteen times funnier because they’re such ridiculous predators.

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What I have done Summer 2014 edition
  1. Graduated college
  2. applied to literally hundreds of jobs
  3. been to an out of state job interview-and was offered the position
  4. received 3 (ok technically 4) job offers
  5. declined 2 (ok technically 3) job offers…and was really uncomfortable doing it.
  6. started my first big girl job!! 
  7. moved into my brand new apartment…living alone for the first time!
  8. registered for the Foreign Service Officer Test (FSOT) and started my career plans for DOS
  9. paid my first big girl bills
  10. gotten rid of a lot of the bad
  11. started making new franz at work
  12. really started being ok again! 

I’m just pretty stoked to finally be getting to a good place. Here’s to hoping this keeps up. 2014 has been a VERY shitty year, but the past month has been pretty good. 

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stariy-pedjak:

Jessica | Regina Spektor

❝It’s February again
we must get older
so wake up❞

Jessica by Regina Spektor (via reginaholic)

(via reginaholic)

Today my friend was buried and I also found out my position is being eliminated at work

Life: 2 Me: 0

❝Before I performed in 2008, they had fuck Kanye on the port a potties, but this year fuck those port a potties. When I’m in the studio or do an interview or make a t-shirt, I give everything I got. And when I talk that shit, it’s so you can talk that shit. If you’re fan of me, then you’re fan of your mother fucking self.❞
Kanye West at Bonnaroo 2014 6/13/14 (via takeoffandland)

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I think I’m starting to hate “adult life” even though I’m not really in it yet.

Graduated from college a while back in May. Bob wasn’t there, but his family received his diploma. Went to Puerto Rico, Boston, etc. Looking for jobs like crazy, and with no luck. Things just have been really shitty for the past few months, and I’m over it. I’m not sure if I’m cut out for adult life, quite frankly. Uhh don’t take that the wrong way…

The past two months and 6 days have been filled with grief and sadness. For Bob, for my friends, and for his family. He will be laid to rest tomorrow, and while my heart breaks, I know this is an important final step. I cannot wait to have the chance to go “visit him” from now on. I bought him a Nats hat to lie on his grave. 

God damn, why did this have to happen? I don’t understand why a member (and frankly probably the best member) of the back lobby is gone so suddenly. I don’t understand why I went to his funeral instead of his wedding. I don’t understand why it happened fucking 3 weeks before we graduated. Quite frankly,  I don’t understand why out of everyone I DON’T know from college, it had to be him. And then I get angry with myself because I know I shouldn’t wish it on someone else, on some other group of friends. 

I went through this seven years ago, and the minute I got that phone call I felt a sense of dread. You start to develop a new sense of normal for a second, and then it all shatters. 

The worst part is that we all have to move on, we all get to have these major life events, good and bad. And he doesn’t. That’s truly the injustice of it all. That he didn’t graduate, that he won’t get married, have kids, travel, do everything he wanted to do. All the hopes and dreams we shared…they won’t happen for him.

And that’s truly what I’m angry about.

I don’t really believe in God, but if I did, I would be furious at him for this. Most people at the funeral (luckily) recognized that this was not “an act of God” and more of something  along the lines of “God weeps with us blah blah.” I don’t believe it is either, but I’m glad they at least get comfort. I’m jealous of those that can find comfort in beliefs. However small the comfort.

Because even though I am hurt, I know there are so many people who were closer to him. And I cannot imagine their pain and suffering. I simply cannot.

So tomorrow, keep Bob and his family and friends in your thoughts. We all need it.

bittenlipsandblondetips:

unmutekurloz:

shelleyyadamss:

englishistheartofbullshit:

sweetassfoodstuffs:

handletheheat.com

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE CONTROL

Control is the ingredients before changing/adding anything.

SCIENCE.

No control is Crocker Corp. 

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bittenlipsandblondetips:

unmutekurloz:

shelleyyadamss:

englishistheartofbullshit:

sweetassfoodstuffs:

handletheheat.com

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE CONTROL

Control is the ingredients before changing/adding anything.

SCIENCE.

No control is Crocker Corp. 

(via theturtleandtheghost)