Guess I've Missed You From The Day We First Met

I'm Emily. I'm 22. I recently graduated from college. I plan on seeing the world someday. Preferably sooner rather than later. Any questions? Need help with something? Don't be afraid to ask.  fabulous person



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Jessica | Regina Spektor

❝It’s February again
we must get older
so wake up❞

Jessica by Regina Spektor (via reginaholic)

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Today my friend was buried and I also found out my position is being eliminated at work

Life: 2 Me: 0

❝Before I performed in 2008, they had fuck Kanye on the port a potties, but this year fuck those port a potties. When I’m in the studio or do an interview or make a t-shirt, I give everything I got. And when I talk that shit, it’s so you can talk that shit. If you’re fan of me, then you’re fan of your mother fucking self.❞
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I think I’m starting to hate “adult life” even though I’m not really in it yet.

Graduated from college a while back in May. Bob wasn’t there, but his family received his diploma. Went to Puerto Rico, Boston, etc. Looking for jobs like crazy, and with no luck. Things just have been really shitty for the past few months, and I’m over it. I’m not sure if I’m cut out for adult life, quite frankly. Uhh don’t take that the wrong way…

The past two months and 6 days have been filled with grief and sadness. For Bob, for my friends, and for his family. He will be laid to rest tomorrow, and while my heart breaks, I know this is an important final step. I cannot wait to have the chance to go “visit him” from now on. I bought him a Nats hat to lie on his grave. 

God damn, why did this have to happen? I don’t understand why a member (and frankly probably the best member) of the back lobby is gone so suddenly. I don’t understand why I went to his funeral instead of his wedding. I don’t understand why it happened fucking 3 weeks before we graduated. Quite frankly,  I don’t understand why out of everyone I DON’T know from college, it had to be him. And then I get angry with myself because I know I shouldn’t wish it on someone else, on some other group of friends. 

I went through this seven years ago, and the minute I got that phone call I felt a sense of dread. You start to develop a new sense of normal for a second, and then it all shatters. 

The worst part is that we all have to move on, we all get to have these major life events, good and bad. And he doesn’t. That’s truly the injustice of it all. That he didn’t graduate, that he won’t get married, have kids, travel, do everything he wanted to do. All the hopes and dreams we shared…they won’t happen for him.

And that’s truly what I’m angry about.

I don’t really believe in God, but if I did, I would be furious at him for this. Most people at the funeral (luckily) recognized that this was not “an act of God” and more of something  along the lines of “God weeps with us blah blah.” I don’t believe it is either, but I’m glad they at least get comfort. I’m jealous of those that can find comfort in beliefs. However small the comfort.

Because even though I am hurt, I know there are so many people who were closer to him. And I cannot imagine their pain and suffering. I simply cannot.

So tomorrow, keep Bob and his family and friends in your thoughts. We all need it.

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sweetassfoodstuffs:

handletheheat.com

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE CONTROL

Control is the ingredients before changing/adding anything.

SCIENCE.

No control is Crocker Corp. 

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bittenlipsandblondetips:

unmutekurloz:

shelleyyadamss:

englishistheartofbullshit:

sweetassfoodstuffs:

handletheheat.com

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE CONTROL

Control is the ingredients before changing/adding anything.

SCIENCE.

No control is Crocker Corp. 

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tastefullyoffensive:

Tiny Hamster Eats Tiny Burritos

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mazeltoph:

how can we believe the dates written on historical documents when the other day i wrote january 2010 on one of my papers

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There is something so prophetic about this. RIP Bob. We love you & miss you.

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Dallas Buyers Club (2013)

Towards the end of Dallas Buyers Club, Ron Woodroof (Matthew McConaughey) returns to the Mexican hospital where he first received medications to effectively help him battle his HIV. Shortly after Ron and the doctor discuss a new possible treatment evolving from caterpillars Ron wanders into a back room full of monarch butterflies. Simultaneously back in Texas, his business partner, fellow HIV sufferer, and possibly the best friend Ron has ever had is succumbing to the aggressive disease. Rayon (played with perfection by Jared Leto) is a transgendered woman who never did get the sex change she wanted. Watching Ron among those possibly life-saving butterflies, as his best friend undergoes the ultimate cocoon transformation leaving her poor frail body behind, is the best kind of cinematic metaphor. (x)

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thatwetshirt:

Dallas Buyers Club (2013)

Towards the end of Dallas Buyers Club, Ron Woodroof (Matthew McConaughey) returns to the Mexican hospital where he first received medications to effectively help him battle his HIV. Shortly after Ron and the doctor discuss a new possible treatment evolving from caterpillars Ron wanders into a back room full of monarch butterflies. Simultaneously back in Texas, his business partner, fellow HIV sufferer, and possibly the best friend Ron has ever had is succumbing to the aggressive disease. Rayon (played with perfection by Jared Leto) is a transgendered woman who never did get the sex change she wanted. Watching Ron among those possibly life-saving butterflies, as his best friend undergoes the ultimate cocoon transformation leaving her poor frail body behind, is the best kind of cinematic metaphor. (x)

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